Tomorrow is not promised, so we live for the moment.

Sunday

K its been awhile since I updated. My break overall was fine. Chilled wit the homies. Met some new people. Got a couple of steals over break that I'm tryna resale for profit. Bought black tat evisus for 40 size 30. I'm tryna sell for atleast a bill. I've decided to pierce my ears tomorrow by myself finally. Two more weeks until braces off. I need to start on my drivers ed soon. )=

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"XXXXXXX" (9:53:20 PM): that was when i was in the bathroom, and i brought the laptop in there to talk to you.

"XXXXXXX" (9:53:22 PM): HAHAH. (=

Sunday

Ugh this weekend the weather has been pretty bad.

I wanted to make a new post before I started my essay. Just finished reading Chapter 1 of New Moon. WOW that was the longest it took me to read anything. Wasn't even that long. I was hella distracted I guess. This Chapter was pretty good. Nice way to start a book. It really captured my interest and I hope to read more tomorrow. In this Chapter it is Bella's birthday and they through a party for her and she almost dies AGAIN. Ha enough about New Moon. On to my day. My day went pretty well. Woke up at 6 got to school at 7. PE we played dodge ball. Pretty fun. School went by fast as usual. In 5th period I took a Chemistry test and for the first time I felt prepared. I think I answered ever question correctly and I actually had notes to use. After the test me and Cali walked around campus as usual. Brandon came along later on. During lunch was SC Idol and I wasn't really feeling it. Me and Louis went to go get some food at the lunch line, then Matthew called me out of no where asking if I wanna go eat wit him. Louis came alone with us. We went to McDonald's and saw CJ and Jose there. Got food and ate there. Pretty awkward seeing someone I used to talk to sitting right next to me. HAHA and she didn't even say whats up. Left McDonald's at like 12:45. Matthew was hella speeding to make it by 12:50 so we wouldn't be late for 6th period. He was trying to find a shortcut to school, but we ended up getting lost. We were on San Felipe and made a right on YB road and Matthew thought it was the other YB. So we drove all the way down until we saw a sign that said Street ends in 200 ft. We quickly turned around. We dropped off Louis near his house cause he didn' t want to go to 6th. Got the the student parking lot around 1:10. Saw Ms Maddox and ran as fast as I can to class. Got to class and my teacher was hella tripping, but it's all good. It was worth getting in trouble. After school was lovely.Chilled with Chenelle the whole time. It was fun. Today was an experience I will never forget. HAHA. I rode a fixie today. CRAZY a bike with only one gear and no brakes. I was riding around Silver Creek and every time I saw a car I would be hella scared considering I can't brake. I was riding around the busloading zone and came up behind this one car. I tried to pass by it and the tires caught the side walk. I fell to my sides hella hard. I havn't fell off a bike since I was younger. I didn't get hurt at all, but my jeans did. I had this big scratch mark on my new jeans that won't come off. Its cool tho, still looks good. Tomorrow is Friday the 13th. I'm hella happy its Friday already and President's week here I come. Most definitely I'll hit up SF couple times. Forsure Matthew is gonna drive Me, Louis, and Jimmy there. I'm hella procrastinating right now. Instead of writing this I should be writing my essay. )=

Take Me Away

I got a pocket, a pocket full of sunshine. haha
My day was lovely. Woke up 6:45 got to school at 7:40. Hella late for PE. My class ran so I walked around in circles. School was a breeze, went by super fast. After school kicked it for a bit in the busloading zone. Then Matthew picked us up. Me, Louis, and Farland went to In N Out. Then went to Milpitas to handle some business. Went to Starbucks in berryessa. Chilled there for a bit. Then went to Indy to drop Louis off. After we went to Great Mall to eat. Walked around for a bit. Then met up wit someone. Did the meetup then went to go get some burritos then went home. FUCK grades came in wowsers. I expected my grades to be like this. I wasn't surprised at what I saw. Hella funny how Marc was yelling at Matthew and didn't say a word to me. Felt SUPERB. Today was a great day.

CLEAN.WDYWT

Ha, Just checked your blog. Its whatever.I can't believe sometimes you cross my mind. Not even worth thinking about you. Calm down wit all these guys, enough said. You changed for the worst. I got better. I'm the bigger man.
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Today was chill day. Handled alot of business. I need to do catch up on hella homework and so far I haven't done shit. Chem quiz on Thursday Geo Test on Friday Journal Entries due on Thursday. Hopefully I get my shit together.
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Girl, you make me smile please stay awhile.

I'm Back.

Today was a lovely day. No stress, no nothing. Everything went smooth. Didn't do anything special during school. After school Nellie picked me up so I can baby sit Jonah. She dropped me and Jonah off at Oakridge. We ate panda express then got some jamba juice. Walked around the mall. Then played tag after. haha. Too bad I don't have any pics. )= I got home around 4:30. As soon as I got home I started taking pics of my shoes I wanted to sell. Posted up my Flip 3's, Teal Clydes, Air Stabs, and New Balances. Within 10 minutes of posting it I sold it. Now I can finally pay my dad back for letting me borrow 100 to get my books. I havn't sold much recently, but I'm happy I sold these shoes. Especially the teal Clydes. Tomorrow after school I need to do a meet up at eastridge to sell my polka dot huf hat. While I'm there I need to ship out 2 packages.

Shoes:
http://www.solecollector.com/forums/recession-sale-steals-deals-jays-stabs-puma-nb-10-10-5-t838843.html

Clothes:
http://www.solecollector.com/forums/huf-hundreds-hats-cheapmonday-h-m-hoody-7-3-8-cheap-t826098.html

Today was boring. Went to dim sum that's about it. After Marc dropped off me and Matthew home and we went to do a meet up. Nothing special. Just finished tapering my hair again. Need to start on my homework soon.
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Right now nothing feels right. Everything seems out of place. 3 months ago I wouldn't have expected my life to turn out like this. But now I have to look at the positive. Matthew has a car right now and that means more freedom for me. I don't have to ask for rides home no more. I don't have to ask permission to go out. I can go out whenever I want to. Even though I have more freedom I still feel empty. School is boring as usual. Classes are the same. I tried changing 3 classes, but only ended transferring out one class which is PE. That's probably the best thing I've ever done. No more tension. I can be myself again. I need to focus more in school tho. Instead of doing my homework at night I'm on the phone. I need to keep myself in check. No more girls. School is my priority.

2 Months

Its been 2 months and I don't know why this shitting is phasing me. I was completely over everything until just last week. Fuck it tho. Shit isn't worth thinking about or stressing about. Its Sunday Morning and I feel somewhat empty. This is supposed to be the best time of my life, but things havn't been going smooth. Yesterday was pretty chill. Recently I've been having migraines I don't know why though. Maybe stress? Yesterday me and matthew drove around Cupertino and visited my dad. Saw him for a bit. Went to Valley Fair to pick up something for Matthew. Went downtown after to hit up some shops. Left and went to go eat. I wasn't feeling to good so I asked my brother to drop me home. He ended up going to the movies wit Helen while I was with Marc helping him fucking baby sit Jonah. Today I feel like playing basketball, but I don't know if Marc will let us. I have hella homework, but I'll start later on tonight.

Today was a pretty chill day. School went quick. I felt hella tired today for some reason. I fell asleep in like 3 classes. Haha today I actually had food. Thanks for everything. I was hella surprised when she actually brought me food. She gave me a hollister bag filled with: Water, Chips, Sandwiches, Chicken Bake, Crackers, and a Cheesecake. I actually had food to eat today. The Cheesecake was hella good. After school me and matthew decided to go to valley fair. We went there and matthew got his jeans tapered and we went to do a meet up at archbishop mitty. After went to premier and bounced. Matthew dropped me home so he can go to practice and as soon as I got home I was knocked out. Slept for like 3 hours. Best nap ever. Just got finished burning a new CD and I'm going to start on my homework soon.
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Idk what I want right now. You seem hella sweet and nice, but something is telling me your not the one for me. Thats the reason why I havn't been making any moves because I don't wanna lead you on. Its nice how you make me feel wanted.

finally learned how to do a screenshot.

SF 2.4.09

Day started out well, woke up at 8 o'clock. Got hella good ass sleep. Woke up, took a shower, brushed my teeth, cut my hair, burn a CD to listen to, and we bounced. Their was no traffic so driving to sf was a fucking breeze. Got to my ortho around 10:30. Me and Matthew was gonna visit SFCS to see old friends, but we didn't have enough time so we decided to not. Went to UCSF say my Doctor. Shit was disappointing he postponed on taking off my braces til the next appointment. So March 11 is the day I'll finally get them off. After our appointment me and matt drove around. Went to crossroads, Haight, and Downtown. I didn't buy shit, but matthew bought hella shit as usual. Today was worth skipping the CAHSEE, but I hella wanted my braces off. It's cool tho I can wait another month.

This has got to be the best SF trip.

Yet Another Day.

CAHSEE testing today. Hella easy.
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Night before slept at like 1 cause I was talking to Meggie I guess. Didn't really accomplish anything. It just brought back old memories I tried to forget. Your happy now, living life to the fullest. Don't do anything stupid. After I got off the phone Matthew told me the stupidest thing in the world he said, "Just get back wit her". I still can't believe he said that considering everything. Its whatever now. Shit still bugs me, but its your life. Have fun wit that cupcake no filling shit cause you'll realize how many people you hurt by doing that. I felt I've grown more since our break up in a better way. You changed for the worst.

Disappointing.

My day started out pretty good. Since no one's at my house this whole weekend I can wake up anytime I choose. I woke up at 7 surprisingly. The night before Helen stayed over until like 1. I woke up turned on my computer. Chilled on the computer for a bit. I was tryna kick it wit Johanna, but her mother said she couldn't go. So that ruined my plans for today. Got ready around 11 then Helen came over. We ended up leaving the house at like 1. We went straight to In N Out. Ate there and went to Andrel's house. We swooped him up and went to valley fair. After VF we went to Chili's for Angelique's birthday dinner. It was pretty chill. Anna hit me up to go to this one party. Then Jimmy called me to go. So me and Matthew decided to check it out. We drove there and it was pretty chill. Got aggravated and disappointed at her sight considering everything and how much she's changed. I wanted to stay there longer, but Matthew wanted to bounce. Since he was driving I couldn't do anything. I took like 2 shots or something like that. Didn't feel anything. I still don't know why I took those shots. Probably cause I was heated for a bit. Finally saw Anna. Too bad I couldn't really kick it wit her. Maybe next time. When me and Matthew bounced we went straight to tapioca. I was still heated from the party, but I was slowly calming down. Matthew felt sorry for me so he actually spent some money on me to buy me something. That was the first time he actually bought me something. I was in shock. I was still heated even when I went home, but then I thought about it. If she's that stupid to change, why am I gonna trip about her? There's so many girls out there and I know a few that will treat me better. I took me until now to realize all the bullshit. It's pretty official I do hate you.

Not a single salty tear
Not a feeling in my chest
Baby I'm feeling no stress
I'm too fly to be depressed